My Stay at Homewood: An Update

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“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”          Brené Brown

Hi Friends,

So here I am, almost at the end of my 8 week  Homewood Health Centre – Integrated Mood and Anxiety Program. Let’s just say, it has been A LOT of work. Definitely not “summer camp”.  (Since my kids go to summer camp, we joked that I’d be going to “summer camp” for the summer, too)  To try to explain how the program works, courses I took, the team working with me and living in community with co patients, would never do it justice. Words cannot describe the last 56 days.  I’ve cried (a lot), I’ve laughed, I’ve experienced every emotion possible. Only those of us on IMAP (Integrated Mood and Anxiety Program) can truly understand the depths of emotions, pain, inspiration and encouragement that this program brings.

So, I will do my best to give you a very brief description of my stay, so far.

There is a team of professionals that work with each patient. That team includes psychiatrists, nurses, occupational therapists and social workers, as well as recreational therapists, horticulture therapists, art therapists and music therapists.  Some of the classes I took are: communications, boundaries, re-scripting your life, relationships, managing your emotions and behaviour, behaviour activation and exposure therapy, mindfulness, leisure and self care, horticulture, arts, preparing for discharge, and more.

As incredible as the professional team is, part of what makes Homewood work is community. Living with 42 co-patients; sharing our stories, meals, and time together is phenomenal. We all have our own individual diagnoses, and yet we understand each other on a level that others who do not have a mood disorder can’t.

One of my main questions I get is:

“How are you?”

It’s such a simple question, and yet there is no simple answer. Depending on the day, sometimes the moment. I could be good, or I could be not so good. However, I am way better than I was. I am getting stronger every day. I read a book for the first time in months (this may not seem like much, but when you loose the ability to concentrate and you’re an avid reader, it’s horrible. I was thrilled to finish my first book in months!), my decision making ability is starting to return, my smile is slowly returning.  But all of this takes time. Overall, I am doing well and improving. That’s the main thing.

My original discharge date was August 30th. However, with medication changes and ensuring my mood is stabilized, the team has recommended to extend my stay for 2-4 weeks to be sure that I won’t relapse, . As my wise mum said, if I was in the hospital for something physical, and the doctors said I needed to stay, I would simply trust their decisions. And I fully trust my team here at Homewood.  As I write this, I don’t have a set discharge date.

Know that I truly, truly appreciate all the cards, prayers, letters, texts, messages,, etc. that I have received over the last few months. As well as all the help and love you’ve provided my family. I’m overwhelmed, humbled and honoured to be in so many peoples thoughts.      Thank you.

 

 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
    and he will make your path straight

 

Proverbs 3:5-6

 

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5 Replies to “My Stay at Homewood: An Update”

  1. Linda I think of you often. Know that you are in my heart and thoughts. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to support you or your family. Big hugs.

  2. You are good and strong and growing better day by day…very impressive post ..you can do it with the Lords plan and time …i am with you too 😇😇😇

    Regards Stuart F

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    1. Oh Linda, know you are so often inmy thoughts and prayers… I think of you often and empathize with you as you travel this roller coaster of emotions! Love strength and courage to you dear Linda!!! XOXOX

  3. The program sounds amazing, and so do your support systems that you have there and at home. You are an incredibly brave and strong woman Linda Goodall and I hope you know that. I have always felt empowered by you and even more so now. Thank you for sharing what so many are afraid to talk about. you are always in my thoughts and prayers, hugs Tobey

  4. Linda,

    So good to hear from you and that the program you have been experiencing has proven to be beneficial to you. God is good! And He knows all about your struggles, still loves you, and has provided a program to help!

    I will continue to keep you in my prayers knowing that as you trust Him, He will undertake for you and provide the necessary healing, strength, peace and joy that He has to give.

    Look forward to seeing you and having a chat on your return home!!

    Blessings!

    Grace

    Sent from Mail for Windows 10

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